You know depression is ready to set in
When you wake up hating the life you have created within
Look into the sun filled sky
Let the warmth deeply apply
To fill your heart and your soul
Get rid of the depression that has a hold
Don't let it sink far enough in
For if you do you will not win
Don't let it touch your precious life
Or your family, friends and loved one
Don't let it drag you way down low
Get the sun's warmth to let it go
Fight the fight
And you will win
You will beat
The depression sneaking in
I have a doctor's appointment set for tomorrow. I am dreading it. I am embarrassed and even ashamed. I don't feel that this is something you go to the doctor for. I have always thought I should just suck it up. As you can tell that's no longer working for me.
I am thinking of a road trip as well. I know running isn't the answer. I know that this dark cloud will follow me where ever I go. I just need to get away from here. Hopefully returning with a clear mind and soul.
The weather was beautiful today and I managed to get out...... okay so I had to get groceries. UGH! Maybe tomorrow, it's a whole new day!
edit...Now that it is time to get into bed, and try to put an end to yet another day. I can't help feeling completely defeated. It is time to bow out gracefully. To yeild to this defeat. Let it go. Now if I could only breath.
5 comments:
You can beat this.
You CAN beat this......with help, as I said in my email you have nothing to be ashamed of. Thats the saddest thing about depression I think, it has such a stigma attached to it that many people never seek help.
I'm so proud of you for having the courage to ask for help! you ARE doing the right thing and starting in the right place. I know you will come through this journey a winner just like you have with every other trial in your life.
I'm here if you want to talk
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Yeah, you can beat it. Get the help you need, there's no shame in it. You deserve to be happy.
I am so glad you made your appointment. You are at the beginning of the end of this horrible dark cloud.
I haven't read in a while.
Leigh, you are so much stronger and bigger than this. I've read you for years and I know, without ever even meeting you, but instinctually I know, that... we just need to go shopping together.
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