Hold on it's a Bumpy Ride on this Rollercoaster we Call Life.

It has been such a crazy year. I don't even know where to begin. I have started this blog at least 20 times, but it's so over whelming to think about it, I end up just sitting here staring at this computer not knowing where or how to start. I have decided instead of writing a book to sum up the last crazy year of my life I am just going to provide a few visuals.

Tried one last time to make a go at my marriage. Paul was great, he did everything right. I was just not in the right frame of mind. When I was it was too late. It was difficult, but I have accepted it for what it is. Everything happens for a reason. We got the closure we both needed. Parenting partners we will be.

Happy New Year (August 5th)

To keep the heart unwrinkled,

to be hopeful, kindly, cheerful, reverent

that is to triumph over old age.

Wow I can't believe that I turned 35 this month. I don't feel that old. I don't know where the last 5 years have went. It feels like just yesterday I turned 30, I remember how upset I was for weeks. It was not a happy time in my life. It went rapidly down hill from that day.

Even thought it is hard to accept the fact that I am now 35, I decided to try and look at it from a different point of view. I have completely made a mess of my first 35 years of this life, but have decided to learn from my mistakes (and trust me there has been plenty) and have an amazingly successful, and happy next 35 years.

I have lost this much fat this year. I feel like an entirely different person. People that I knew when I was younger are stopping me on the street and asking when I moved back. People that I have met in the last five years but not have seen in a bit are not recognizing me.

Me Just after my 34th Birthday

Me just after my 35th Birthday

Vancouver June 2009

I spent a few weeks in Vancouver, getting lost amongst the crowds of people. I shopped, I ate sushi, and I walked for miles everyday. I spent some time with an old friend. He was very enlightening and at times even humbling. He took me to The Tragically Hip concert, it was a great. We attended all the Celebration of lights fire work show. Did I mention I ate sushi everyday.

I am about to change careers I am very scared, but needed some change in my life. I am no longer the same person so why do the same job. I am getting very scared this change will be taking place in the next few weeks.

Bri's Tongue and Ash's Noise!

The joys of being a parent. I would have never allowed the tongue piercing but unfortunately she is 18 and I don't have a final say just an opinion. It is hard to let go sometimes. I think Paul is feeling the same way. I got a text from him the other day saying "so I hear our daughter got her tongue pierced" something neither of us wanted, but now can only sit back and watch. So far though that is the only thing we have not approved of, so I guess it's pretty minor.

Soul Mates!!!

That is all I have to say about that for now. This may be continued. Enjoying it too much right now to analyze it.